My life is hectic...let's be real here.
Crazy shenanigans have been happening these past couple of months.
For starters, I moved into the Trinity House, which is an all-girls Christian house close to campus.
I love it, I love it, I love it.
I've also been pretty busy with choirs. I absolutely hate one of them though, I just wish it was OVER!
As much as I love Eugene and everyone I met, I really miss Arizona.
Well, at least my family in Arizona. I feel like my friends don't care as much anymore...
I'm not saying that they for sure don't, but I truly know that they don't understand how it feels to move far away and not have your friends tell you they miss you and ask how you are, or the only time they do talk to you and is to rag on you about something you said or call you stupid...yeah, that's appreciative.
Since I've been gone, I have randomly texted or talked to friends and told them I missed them, just because. Has anyone done that for me? A few, but very few. And, to be honest, it brings out a lot of emotions in me, including sad, hurt, angry, and unloved.
Yeah, unloved. Definitely.
Oh, but guess what, it eventually turns around on me, friends telling me I don't let them know how much I miss them. Wait, really? Like, come on, are you that dumb? I tell people I miss them all of the freaking time. But if people don't want to initiate the conversation with me, why should I go out of my way every time, especially if I feel like their feelings are not mutual. Cool story bro, but no thanks.
If my family was not there, I would not go back to Arizona. I'm sorry, but it's the truth.
I just want to watch football and talk sports with my dad. I want to go shopping or a nice walk with my mom. I want to watch movies with my sisters. I want to play video games with my brothers.
But thanks, friends, this is a great feeling to have over the Holiday season...
But to those friends that have reached out and miss me, thank you. I know who you are and I appreciate you everyday...
Love,
Brittany Lauren
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