Not even a song can describe my feelings right now.
You know how you can be having a totally good day, then one little thing can just ruin it all.
Well, welcome to my life.
Today was a good day. Got more dorm things, bought some Toy Story Mac and Cheese, you know, the good things.
Well, suppertime came along, and I heard the things I begged him never to say again.
"You're getting fat, lose some weight." and "You better be hitting up the gym a lot at NAU."
Yes, my father pretty much calls me fat on a regular basis.
Even when I tell him to stop, he keeps rambling on, discussing my weight.
It's not like I go around they house and say "HEY DAD. Stop being an alcoholic. Stop smoking. Just stop!"
No, I'm the only person in the family that will stand by his side if people blow up at him.
And this is the thanks I get? Awesome.
I've never been more ready to leave than after tonight. Right now, my family is the last thing I wanna be with right now.
Don't get me wrong, I love them, but I'm getting sick and tired of how I'm being treated, especially when I'm leaving soon.
I should be hearing things like "I'm gonna miss you" or "I don't want you to go."
Instead I'm hearing "I'm not gonna miss you" and "Just leave now, no one wants you here."
That's right, not even my family wants me around...well this is just great.
Only 11 more days, then I'm gone. Then they'll be happy...
Love,
Brittany Lauren
Screw him. I think you're beautiful and wonderful just the way you are!!! And everyone at NAU is going to think so too, so prove your old man wrong by shining even brighter. I love you Serots Doof! Muah!
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